02.21.03 2:56 pm

I Just Don't Know

yeah . . . once again i let myself fall in love too quickly just bc it felt right. and now . . . i suffer the consequences. i just piss myself off so much sometimes.

i'm so upset right now and i don't want ot let it all flow out bc i'd end up taking it out on other people. and they don't deserve that. i just really need to talk to him, but hell no, i'm not calling him. this morning i was tempted to call back just to see if that chick was still there so i could ask her who she was, but then that'd be kinda evil to her if she doesn't know about me. plus i think if he doesn't want to be with me, that's fine. i just wish he was honest about it all. to me and the other chick.

and i guess i can understand where he's coming from bc he works 12-9 everyday and when he gets home, the last thing he wants to do is get on a phone or go somewhere. but then again, we have before 12 and the weekends. i'm willing to miss class somedays to hang out with him and the weekend is just wide open and i could meet him up at work during his break or something. this is so messed up.

~*BlueStarloser

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