02.21.04 8:32 pm

GoodWeek

sorry i haven't updated in a while. most of yall already know what's been goin on and all that jazz, but i'm updating for my record :o) this was probably one of my busiest and yet funnest week of the year this far. i think about high school and how i was always so busy and it was stressful, but i liked it for th emost part. not the school part, but the staying busy and active part. i don't know, i just perform better and stay on my toes when i have a ton of things on my "To-Do" list and stuff. anyway, i'm gonna try to keep this up.

oh yeah, i think i kinda feel better bc we finally went to the RecCenter on campus too. i am soooo out of shape. i've gained just under 20 pounds since finals last semester . . . and people tell me they can't tell. i don't know if they're trying to be nice or if the weight is just going to the perfect places. lol. i've always been chubby so i can deal, but i just want to feel better about myself :o) i think the weight gain is partly bc of Donnie (which i hate to admit bc i'm "supposed" to be okay with the breakup . . . and i thought i was) and partly bc school started back up and the holidays and crap. eh, i don't care. either way i'm out of shape.

i need a Rec buddy. my sisters are always backing down and stuff bc one has the baby and her ex and the other has her bf and is always "studying". they've each gone with me once which is cool, but i have to convince them to do it. it's ridiculous and i don't think i could do it on a tri-weekly basis. i saw that nice guy the first time i went and i thought it would be cool to work out with him but i don't know if he'd be annoyed or not since we don't know each other well. everyone else has work or class or they're studying or they have a significant other or they just don't "feel" like going. so yeah . . . i'm all alone. i'll have to dance on the treadmills all by myself :o\ i think i'll go after i pick her up from work and maybe . . . just maybe if i went straight up there . . . she would have no choice and have to come with me mwahahaha :o)

~*BlueStarLoser

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