05.23.03 9:52 pm

Friday Night . . . and i'm at home . . .

yeah i know . . . what's a sexy chick like me doin home this Friday night . . . haha . . . well i'm bored and tired so i'll just do a quick recap of my week. i've been really busy with class and junk and yeah . . . SOME people don't seem to understand that. me and Jonathan are officially "just friends" as of wednesday night bc he thinks i don't have enough time for him and i never go see him. that day was just messed up. (if you read this . . . i'm sorry . . . really). i was pretty upset, but then i started thinking that he never comes to see me either so what good is that? it's like i'm the only one making the effort here. and i did call him whenever i had a chance. so as of thursday afternoon . . . i'm over it. not over him, but over it.

i have a new job now. YAY! finally right? i got hired this morning and i start June 2nd. it's full time and works along with my classes. like i have classes from 8-12ish everyday EXCEPT fri, sat, and sun and work 3:30 to midnight everday with sat and mon off. it's a lot, but i'll deal bc i need money to move out and all that good stuff. plus i think i'll enjoy the job and the people there and yeah . . . it'll be fun.

in politics, my group isn't that bad. in fact they are VERY cool and we get along great. all of us kinda click together well. i feel really bad for complaining about them now bc i actually got to know them and they kick ass. i'm tryin to fix my sis up with one of the guys, but she thinks he's too old . . . of course she would say that. he's not as old as she thinks he is. i think he's cute and we can carry on a conversation pretty well which is a plus. anyway, he's perfect for my sis and she better do somethin about it or i'll just ask him to call her. but knowing her, she'll get mad and won't know what to say. yesterday he saw her and he thought she was me so he asked me about her and i explained (even though i think i've explained it many times before . . .) and he tried to talk to her about it today, but she just kept smiling and nodding and not saying anything . . . come on girl . . . gotta speak up. word. i think something is just up with my approach to guys. i see no problems with it though.

oh yeah, i went to see "Daddy DayCare" with Payne last sunday. it was soooo great to see him again. i really miss him in my life. i think we went just as friends, but i still have a "little" crush on him. it was . . . akward. and i'm never like that so i'm convinced i still have a crush on him and at the time, that would have been a bad thing, but now . . . no more Jonathan . . . things work out great, huh? well not really great i guess bc i haven't talked to Payne since last Sunday and i don't think he was into me like that anyway. and i don't think i need a bf now anyway. and yeah . . . it was GREAT to see him again :o) after the movies we didn't know what to do and in the long run, we ended up going to his campus and he showed me around. it was great :o) i crush too much and on multiple guys . . . but i'm not taken now, so it's semi-okay :o)

i'm gonna get some sleep now i guess. yeah i know . . . ten and i'm gonna "sleep". i'm just in a weird mood today i guess. maybe it's bc of Jonathan . . . NOT
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